omg. can your spot the ugliest photo in my header pic? at first i thought the maple photo damn cute.. but it looks damn out of place laaaaaa. grrrrr. wait till i find time to change the photo again. ):

i've been sleeping late and waking up early these few days leh. ): i think im really so so so stressed. yesterday i talked to fairy for so long. he was so fierce, till the extent that he wanted to call me and scold me. 0.0! but but but, sorry lar fairy (: im still very positive now leh. teeheehee ((: and super duper thanks okay - for talking to me 2 hours straight although you want to sleep already. wa, this kind of friend hard to find. sacrifice sleep for me leh. =DD dont say you feel so honoured to appear here again.. hahahaha. i always like to blog about my friends. :/

RER: that day i blade from my house all the way to bbdc leh.
RER: hen pro hor?
fairy: that day i walked home from imm leh.
RER: wtf!

for your info, fairy stays at yewtee leh! fomg.. = next time i walk home from airport let you see. =x

shucks, talking about airport.. im really serious about resigning leh. I dont even want to finish up my remaining 4 shifts because i dread the travelling time. You see, i used to enjoy this travelling time because i can use the time to think about alot of things. But now i dont want this kind of time. Its so unnecessary and im sure you people want to keep me away from these spare time as much as possible right? teeheehee. tzelip please?

WILL YOU TAKE ALL MY SHIFTS?

even if you didnt get suspended, im sure they wouldnt mind if you take over my shifts. =DD just remember dont drink too much while working can already. hahahahahahahah. but then again, because i heard something like diageo and vmsd collaborating or what. if i can promote johnnie walker black label... HMMMM... if only... aye, but i think HIGHLY impossible lar. diageo is big company leh! think too much think too much. tsk! i wanna resign, fullstop. (then i'll go job-seeking tgt with kaitai. teeheehee. but i think even $9/hr job wont interest us anymore)

now im thinking so hard about christmas. ): liang invited me to the christmas celebration at his church leh. i am seriously interested! has been eons years since i visited a church. how i miss the primary school times when i always go to the church on sunday. but now abit shy leh. ): hehehe. anyone wants to go with me?

oh dear, its 2 more hours to one o clock. then i'll see my fyp mates banging on my door already. i better go bathe and get ready. (:

All the junk food i received. HAI. Im really really really alright le lar. Please believe me can? Thanks for all the food, but but I really dont feel like eating leh. Socks will murder me if she finds out that the meal we had at 3pm today is all that i had. ): Its not that i dont wanna eat lar! Its just that I dont even feel hungry at all, and super no appetite can? Thanks socks for the tidbits and for coming over today.

Thanks siwei (:

Thanks lionel. Funny leh this guy. :/ He always appear so coincidentally when Im out of love ): Last time also.. Now also.. and that time was the first time he smsed me after i decided to cancel my investment plan. Today was the 2nd time he msged me since that cancellation. 0.0! I wonder the 3rd time will be when. ): boohoo.

Im going to pack my room. My mommy is complaining that my room is uber messy. She wants the 4k she puts into making my wardrobe, my brother's bed and wardrobe, and the shoe rack to not go into any waste. )): I've already slept my whole day away. Time to be a good girl. =D

and then chiong for fyp.

URGH. i hope i dont miss out the 5DAY chalet =DD EVERYONE PROMISE TO GO CAN??? IM HEARTBROKEN YOU KNOW? PLEASE STAY OVERNIGHT EVERYONE. im going to resign my airport job already since kaitai is not working anymore and tzelip might lose his job too. NO POINT already. so so so i will stay overnight during the weekends if i successfully get rid of my job =x. if not someone drive me to work la. back and fro =x VERY NEAR WHAT. changi er yi. =x okok? GAVIN? LIANG? =DD

I never realise i have so many good friends around me.

• Kent - who listened to me cry for a total of 40 minutes today.
• Gavin - who came and pick me up almost immediately and brought us to mount faber and take cable car and chill at the bar.
• Qiaozhen - who gave me kitkat chunky and stayed with us till 1am.
• Shippy - who told me plenty of 大道理ever since last sunday. Always direct and hurting, but somehow right afterall.
• KaiTai - who came all the way to my house to give me a bag of chocolates and my favourite buenos even though im not at home. I got the shock of my life when i saw them lying on my table when i reached home.
• Filbert - who still cared and assured me he'll come and accompany me if i need him to.
• Liang - who is still so worried that I would get drunk like the other day. and used that same old line "call me if anything".
• Fairy - who made me laugh even though its just a few smses.
• Socks - who cared and reminded me to look up at the ceiling. (but eyes too small)
• Brother Heng - who asked me what happened and didnt laugh at me. 0.0

I took alot of photos while we're up in the cable car. The scenery is so beautiful.. but sadly, i didnt bring my camera along.. I had to use that lousy camera phone. ): We stepped into many nicely decorated places with loads of little light bulbs hanging down from trees. And then christmas songs are played ever so beautifully. wah! really got christmas mood! =DD and and while at the bar, fake snow rained from the top. (though its more like the snow was squirted out) but its still as beautiful what! Christmas come quick quick pleaseeeee. Oh yes, Gavin was so nice. He just got his bonus and he treated us that cable car ride and paid for the bill at the bar. Gavin is feeling richhh. =DD

I reached home at 1 plus am today. Daddy was somehow waiting for me.. His first sentence to me was "Xinyi, 你现在跟庆祥交往还一直乱乱跑，这样不好leh"

Daddy doesnt understand the situation. "爸！从来没有交往过，以后也不会"

god. Im being so not discreet. :/ but there's nothing to hide anyway. I just want everyone to know that there's nothing anymore AND you people can stop asking if im ok or not already. because I AM OK (:

Im sorry I havent been blogging for a few days. Im not like that usually. I blog daily. =x but.. you know.. 2 days ago i told your i 失恋already, but nobody believe. :/ chengkai didi, CAN YOU PLEASE BELIEVE NOW?

but im actually feeling better now that i've cried it all out. (: REALLY REALLY. but can your go organise the taipei trip? =X chang korkor PLEASE? i very steady one.. you organise, i go. dont ask me go ladies night can already. No matter how depress i also wont go clubbing and drinking le. hopefully.

and and and, gavin gavin.. hongkong how? ): i want go leh! ask more people to go?

): i realised this entry quite lengthy. but last last.

no matter what.. thanks for being so truthful even though I think you should have told me this long ago. you knew you're already feeling this way weeks ago, but i dont understand why you have to avoid and pretend nothing's wrong. i thought u dislike pretendence. you always scold me because i always choose to avoid. but it seems, you're the best at pretending, and avoiding everything, including me. but still, these 2 months have been a pleasure because i know at least there're some times when you truly cared. i've never regretted anything that had happened within these 2 months.. the only thing that i regret, is the start of this whole thing. I told you right from the start that we shouldnt have. but you insisted that i shouldnt push you away. now that i didnt, there's still no happy ending at all. im alright. really really alright (: I have plenty of friends around me who care for me from the past, till now. so i'll hopefully, forget everything and PRETEND nothing ever happen. rewind rewind.. hello qingxiang, i am xinyi. nice to meet you. 0.0! september 24th is gavin's birthday. FREE?

i told you im alright. (i think i sound like a retard)

i got a feeling when hongyu reads this entry, he'll sms me to assure me that he's there for me. :/ hehehehe. so thick skin i know. but dont sms me and tell me that can? i dont want to read anymore words of console. really really. =DD

i feel so grown up (:

ps (kent is damn fucked up. he despise cheena people. -.-)

I am feeling very stressed. So much so that I'm feeling sleepy, but cant fall asleep. So much so that I'm feeling lovesick, but insist on restraining myself. So much so that I dont wanna talk to anyone.

I am feeling very stressed. I couldnt remember if I have ever felt the same stress level b efore. I think the current stress level is to its maximum already and I'll never experience any stress greater than this ever again.

I am feeling very stressed. I can imagine myself on the ice skating ring and skating to the music with occasional spins that bring about thunderous applause from the audience. Or snuggling up close to my bestie in a hotel room after a tired day of play at Hong Kong's Disneyland. I can visualise myself attending our graduation ball in a pretty dress and stealing the limelight from others. Or look, wedding bells are ringing and I'm in this lovely wedding gown, now happily married to this man and going to live my life happily ever after.

Yes, daydreams I know. Or you can call them hallucinations, illusions, wait-long-also-dont-have whatever crapshit you think stress will lead to.

I am feeling very stressed. I kept thinking how this lecturer can become a lecturer with his powderful laozee engrish. Why deadlines are interestingly called deadlines and yet supposedly wise people can assign datelines to our project. Seriously, I don't understand.

I am feeling 800,000 counts of stress now.

I am feeling very stressed. I think I'm getting older because I'm thinking this much.

I wrapped my IC in a tissue wrapper and threw it down to melissa. I said Im gonna be a good girl and stop clubbing and drinking. But I never discourage underage clubbing. teeheehee. Melissa is pro leh. Luckily she has me, a very steady friend (hehe), to lend her my IC at 12MN. Although she stays just 10 stone throws away from me (she stays within 1 stone throw away from yongxuan), she talks to me like once or twice per year only leh.

People whom communicates with you once or twice per year, are considered acquaintance.

I cant imagine..

I LENT MY IC TO AN ACQUAINTANCE LEH.


eh, no la. She's not just an acquaintance. teehee. She used to be my daughter-in-law. She used to be our bestest (: hahahahahahhahaha. I hope she dont come back as drunk as me. 0.0

Ok, lets put that episode behind us and move on with life.


Anyway, its just about 2 more weeks before she finally becomes 18. =DD


I still remember when she's still struggling with her 15 year old identity, and her friends have all turned 16, I lent her my expired student pass to enter Kpool. Im so important to her. Without me, she will have lost all this fun and entertainment. 0.0

I think when she's 20 years old, and her friends have all turned 21.. She'll start borrowing IC from me again to watch R21 films.

But as I mentioned earlier, Im super steady one.

=DD so come come melissa, come borrow from me again. Im always helpful.


(*sigh, so please remember not to have sex in february.. If not your babies will need to borrow IC from others also.)


I went to meet Mari today at Takashimaya. It was very very very very very awkward because my Japanese sucks and her English sucks and Im too shy with my hand actions. =/ My brother does all the "broken English cum a wee mix of superly broken Japanese" talking. Sounds horrible.

I did shopping alone today because I thought since I was in town, I should make full use of it. I didnt feel any tiniest bit of loneliness. =DD I felt so grown up instead. teehee. So feeling that way, I went to trim my eyebrows at CitiBella. Please remind me Im a poor bloke next time so I wont go around spending this kind of money. (mommy recommends that I go trim my brows at the market - 5 lollar only) But now, I desperately want a new pair of specs.. and prolly dye my hair some brown colour. HMMMMMM......

Now, I've been working on FYP ever since Im home. It has been FIVE hours. But Im starting to see some shape already. =D

A question hit me suddenly when I was doing the report.

Why only the 2 of us are worrying about this project? Why the 3rd person never ask a single thing about this project? Does he even know that the deadline is less than 2 weeks away? Im starting to feel shit now. Now dont come and pretend to care anymore. Because I dont like this kind of pretendence. And I dont like awkward situations..

i miss Happy so much ):

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